I just finished working on an exam that is due tomorrow, and now I am about to watch a lecture about Bipolar Disorder...that exam is this coming Friday. The stress is coming in waves now, but that is how it goes in Pharmacy school. I need to study everyday this week to get ready for the upcoming exam, but I also need to be physically and mentally present in class this week because this material will be on the exam that follows...it is a marathon, a (very long) race of sorts, an on-going test of will to see who really wants this degree?....so, who really wants it?
I want to finish. I promise I do, I only have the occasional moments where I doubt myself, but that is normal, right? I can see the light, and it is so close now...just within my reach... but right now I just want to scream TIME OUT!
"T" em' up, ref! (That is my basketball, aka B-ball lingo)
But, I can't stop. I can't pause. I can't even say, can I have a break? Because this week is coming whether I like it or not. So, I carry on, and do what needs to be done. Take care of the kids, feed them, bathe them, feed them again (because they eat 24-7, seriously...)...and fit studying in here and there (and everywhere) I can. And for Dylan the following equation is true. PIZZA + movie = Happiness. So, thank goodness, they're not hard to please!
We did do a few fun and HAPPY things this weekend. It can't always be "all work and no play". We all know that makes for a very grumpy Momma. Yesterday was pizza and movie matinee day. YAY!! We saw Jackie Chan in "the Spy Next Door" and the kids both gave it five stars. It was pretty cute.
We made it to church this morning in one piece, and even made it through Walmart alive afterwards. (*cue scary music) THAT was a small victory in itself. There is only one thing in this world that I despise more than Walmart on Sunday...and that's Walmart on SuperBowl Sunday! I completely forgot all about that. It was a madhouse....CRAZY, I tell ya!
.....which reminds me of the lecture I should be watching on Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia...so back to work for me!
p.s. Yes, I went to Walmart and forgot the batteries for my digital camera....I promise new pictures will be uploaded as soon as my brain is not so overwhelmed!
2 comments:
Bipolar and Schizophrenia are fascinating topics. Abnormal psych was by far my favorite class of all the psych classes I had to take for my degree. Good luck on your tests, I'm sure you'll do great!
Ok, your life is crazy right now. It will all be worth it! If I were there, I'd take your kids while you take get a pedicure, take a bath, and eat chocolate...=) haha. Good luck. You are amazing....
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